update

Like I previously said, 2008 has brought a bit of strange luck to the girls of Camp HTFU. What is important is that we keep our perspective. I believe we have.

Two days ago I cried through a half mile walk with my son. Today I woke up to ..... less pain. For 5 days pain has been 9 out of 10. This morning it was a 5. That's a gift. Tuesday I spent an hour on a massage table getting worked on by the magical hands of Kevin at Breathe. The rest of the day was a disaster. I worked a 12 hour Pediatric ED shift and I burst into tears several times due to pain. You think my Nurse Manager would have cared.

Uh..... no.

But my wonderful colleagues did. Including the doctors I work with. They have helped me in more ways than I know. I finally agreed to a prescription for Flexoril. Funny how I have such an aversion to medication. Just took my first dose and I feel the muscle continue to relax.

At noon I will head to the pool for some light laps and no flip turns. Now let's talk about ego. How much does it absolutely kill me to do an open turn? Can you say SWIM SNOB? But I will eat my piece of humble pie and do the open turn. No intervals, just swimming.

All I want to do is move today.

Should that feel good I will do a very easy water run and spend some time in the hot tub. Thursday I spend with Dr. Les Lange of Greater Rochester Chiropractic.

I am holding hope that if I can get out of pain by Sunday, Monday I can ship my bike and Austin is still on. The training I have done is not for nothing. I can put in a good easy week next week and come Austin just race from my heart. Will it be fast? I don't know. I will ride completely on feel, meaning if I have pain I shall slow down or I shall stop. I am okay with that.

I just want to move.

There's one thing that's for sure, this is something that will heal. This is not the end of the world. Sure I have worked so incredibly hard for a season that was crappy. There were many things that were beyond my control, and just as many that were.

Like I could have just been paying attention last Thursday instead of riding with my head down. Admiring those great big watts bought me no watts today.

Humility Mary. Humility. I know.

Day by day. That's all i can do. I will only do what my body shall allow. I am approaching this recovery like I approach everything. With a big heart, great hope and a lot of faith.

Just like my teammates in HTFU. One day at a time girls. One day at a time.