now more than ever

If I have not mentioned it I am really excited to close my book on December 5th. I actually enjoy what I am learning. I am not enjoying the directions it is headed. I am not enjoying the fact that I will be missing pumpkin carving at my house tonight because I will be taking an exam. I am not enjoying the fact that I will not be seeing mister hugger pie get off the bus today.

I told him the news this morning. I told him that starting December 5th I would be there off the bus every single day. Because if you have ever been around when he gets off the bus he runs and I mean runs down the driveway full speed and gives you a knock over hug.

Soon I get to have that every day.

This morning I am at Starbucks studying. For some reason I am wearing grown up clothes. A sweater. I don't know what possessed me to dress this way, but as comfortable as I am I don't fit in with these real job type of people.

I love to be out and about. I love to be dressed in my Lululemon and Mizuno. I love meeting athletes at coffee shops and talking dream talk.

My father always told me that no matter what I do I have to be happy first in what I do.

So I am doing some exploring over the next year in my nursing career. I love being a pediatric emergency nurse. I love knowing what to do when a child rolls in who is very sick...... I love working as a team to save them. I love that excitement. On the other side I hate the feeling of failing when we fail. That devastation to my team is unexplainable. we feel it deep and for a very long time.

I could not do it full time.

There is so much opportunity out there. So many things I can do and create and continue to build on. More than anything I am so excited to discover.